gillykitty

i lay awake thinking about how your eyes seem to shine except i've not seen them in real life but i bet if they did- they'd meet mine and i'd just try not to cry at how pretty they are i'd try to make you feel alright tell you i'm just fine but in my mind there's chaos and i don't have time to feel calm at all and i don't even know what right feels like

Fill the empty space / Words trying to escape A heartbeat beats a fast pace/ trying to win the race Give me what I need / Something you can't see What you can't feel / I knew it wasn't real Help me to breath  / Because it's not you its me You can be the lungs / Words I've already sung I can't control this urge anymore / Life has become something more Tears on my cheek / You will be the death of me

Hold me in your arms/ Crush me in your warmth I want to try something new/ Wanna be with you Don't leave me here/ I'll drown in my fear Don't go please/ Don't leave me/ You see Your my drug and I can't/ get enough You've stolen my heart/ can i get it back I won't ask/ But hope I'll get yours But girl you make me all I am/ All that you can You make me all i would be, should be could be/ you make me believe

Why did they leave me? Why did they go? Why did they make me all alone? Why did they leave me be? I sit here and wonder Sit here and cry Dumbly I wipe at my eye Even now I feel myself going under I spend my days locked up Wishing this pain would stop Every day it gets worse My misery is like a curse Even now I hear the sound of their cries Watch the brutal agony as they die

How do I escape this misery? It follows me everywhere, even when I breathe I can feel it now, heavy in my heart The only thing that chases it is your arms Its suffocating me, I fear I may die Why is it so hard just to get by? I lay awake all the time Because my demons are eating me alive I'm an empty shell of the person i was Now the pain is my only buzz I no longer feel like her The girl who didn't hurt I can feel it now, deep in my soul Shame i never got to grow old